“You can’t study the darkness by flooding it with light.” – Edward Abbey
It’s been a season of loss in my life after losing Haylie in February and a family member last week.
Occasionally, when you think the path can’t become any darker, the last streetlamp goes out.
I’ve come to believe this doesn’t happen to discourage you. Or to dishearten you. Or to leave you alone in the darkness.
I’ve decided to believe it happens to allow your eyes to adjust.
The same way when we turn the light out for bed at night our eyes have to adjust to the darkness before we begin to see outlines of the bed and nightstand and dresser.
The room looks different in the dark.
Sometimes we need life to look different in order to find a different perspective.
From the darkness, once my eyes have adjusted, I see that I have to make a conscious choice to move forward from the pain of losing Haylie and that if I allow it, I will make the grief home. I see that, as we all know, pain and emotions themselves cannot kill us, but the things we do to anesthetize them – can. I see that no matter how much time passes, no matter how long it’s been since you’ve talked to them, no matter what was last said, love wins.
These are important lessons. All of which I wouldn’t have learned with that last streetlamp still bright and beaming, lighting my path.
When you find yourself in the dark, maybe instead of being abandoned or left behind or punished, you’ve been given a gift.
The gift of a different perspective.
Allow your eyes to adjust, and take a look around.
What do you see?