On Birthdays and The Fear of Change

On Birthdays and The Fear of Change “I have accepted fear as part of life – specifically the fear of change …I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back…” – Erica Jong Today is my birthday. This year, instead of allowing the reminder that my life is not where I thought it would be by this age swallow me, I said fuck that and instead bought myself a new…

Saving Me From You: Recovery & Cutting People Out of Your Life.

“Toxic relationships are dangerous to your health; they will literally kill you. Stress shortens your lifespan. Even a broken heart can kill you. There is an undeniable mind-body connection. Your arguments and hateful talk can land you in the emergency room or in the morgue. You were not meant to live in a fever of anxiety; screaming yourself hoarse in a frenzy of dreadful, panicked fight-or-flight that leaves you exhausted and numb with grief.” Bryant…

5 Reasons I’m Speaking About My Mental Health.

“You’re not a victim for sharing your story. You are a survivor setting the world on fire with your truth. And you never know who needs your light, your warmth & raging courage.” Alex Elle Okay. So it’s been a little over a year since I’ve been talking and writing and blogging and video-ing about my own mental health, which includes by association my own mental illnesses, and I’ve gotten my fair share of those…

The best way out is always through. – Robert Frost

Hi. I’m Amanda. And I’ve started this blog 2,389 times and have no reason to believe this start with be any different that the other starts, which ended with lots of weird spam comments about buying handbags in China. But I’m hopeful. I’m a bulimic and compulsive eater with Major Depressive Disorder, generalized anxiety, and an ICD, or Impulsivity Control Disorder (which is a very fancy way of saying I bite the shit out of…