- Are you feeling...
Like you're not as far along in your life as you "should" be?
Like you can't find hope for your future?
Like every day is a struggle just to get through?
Like your depression or eating disorder or addiction is controlling you?
Like you're broken beyond repair?
Like you're alone in the things you're thinking and feeling?
The journey to wholeness will never produce perfection.
Perfection isn’t the goal, for our minds, our bodies, or our lives.
But what you can be, is on the path to mental wellness, to recovery, to freedom, instead of staying stuck. Instead of standing still in the pain. Instead of letting the darkness run your life. The best decision you ever make will be fighting through your depression, your eating disorder, your addiction, because you will become aware of your own power, and that is life-changing.
You can learn to uncover who you truly are and live authentically as that human, learn that that human is okay and valuable and worthy exactly as they are, at your current weight, in your current body, with your current appearance. You can learn to release the need to conform into a version of yourself society deems as acceptable, something that keeps us depressed, anxious, addicted, outside of ourselves, and sick.
You can find a purpose again, no matter how many times you think you’ve crashed and burned, there is a reason you’re here on this earth. There is a reason you’re alive to read this, and there’s a reason you’ve gone through the experiences you have. You can pull it all together into a future you look forward to moving through.
People Spoken To
Cups of Coffee
Hi, I'm Amanda, a professional speaker, writer, and storyteller speaking out in a shiny, Instagram-perfect world.
I love mac & cheese, thunderstorms, dark roast coffee, The Lumineers, and my rescue dog, Haylie. I worked as an actor in Hollywood for five years until bulimia & severe depression took over my life. I left LA to get help and didn’t have a plan for what would come next in my life. I fell into a deeper depression, having walked out on my dream and feeling like an utter failure. But I fought my way through it and chose to live.
I now speak, write, and teach to help you fight for your own life, and I’ve learned to believe it’s never too late to dream a new dream.
I know how it feels to wake up every day not wanting to live.
To lose all hope for your future, your life, yourself. To have a dream shattered. To be controlled by an eating disorder or addiction or depression. But I also know what it’s like to make progress towards finding yourself & a life worth living.
I started speaking in 2017 and fell in love with being able to get on a stage, be me instead of playing a part like I was used to from my Hollywood days, and connect with people on a soul level. Seeing their faces light up when they related to my words, watching them laugh, watching their tears, seeing them take something new away from my talk.
I speak to spread awareness, to instill the knowledge that those struggling are not alone, and to bring inspiration, hope, and encouragement to my audiences. I committed to my life, now I help others commit to theirs.
Reaching the Other Side:
Why Fighting Through Depression Will
Be the Best Decision You Ever Make
• Realizing the personal power that comes with choosing to fight
• Learning your current circumstances are not final
• In order to reach the other side, you have to commit to your life
• How depression makes you a stronger, more resilient, compassionate person
Health Over Hollywood:
Choosing Yourself Over Society's Standards
• Learn media manipulation and how to spot it
• Discover ways to re-program your negative thoughts towards yourself and your body
• The role self-care plays in learning to be kinder to and accept yourself
• Enhanced understanding of how dangerous media expectations are to strive to achieve
It's Never Too Late to Dream
A New Dream:
Learning to Get Back Up
• Understanding that every ending symbolizes a new beginning
• Tips for believing in yourself
• Tangible examples to teach it's never too late, no matter your age
• Learning the importance of grieving a loss before you get back up and start again
What I'm Good At:
• Speaking & writing about hard things
• Making animals out of Play-Doh
• Bringing love to inboxes
• Setting monthly intentions
What I'm Working On:
• Cooking the perfect steak
• Watering my plants
• Making brain-healthy smoothies in the morning
- ON THE BLOG
“I have accepted fear as part of life – specifically the fear of change …I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back…” – Erica Jong
Today is my birthday. This year, instead of allowing the reminder that my life is not where I thought it would be by this age swallow me, I said fuck that and instead bought myself a new tattoo and a writing course to celebrate and break out of my fear of change.
“Toxic relationships are dangerous to your health; they will literally kill you. Stress shortens your lifespan. Even a broken heart can kill you. There is an undeniable mind-body connection. Your arguments and hateful talk can land you in the emergency room or in the morgue. You were not meant to live in a fever of anxiety; screaming yourself hoarse in a frenzy of dreadful, panicked fight-or-flight that leaves you exhausted and numb with grief.” Bryant McGill
“You’re not a victim for sharing your story. You are a survivor setting the world on fire with your truth. And you never know who needs your light, your warmth & raging courage.” Alex Elle
Okay. So it’s been a little over a year since I’ve been talking and writing and blogging and video-ing about my own mental health, which includes by association my own mental illnesses, and I’ve gotten my fair share of those who love it and those who hate it.
Hi. I’m Amanda.
And I’ve started this blog 2,389 times and have no reason to believe this start with be any different that the other starts, which ended with lots of weird spam comments about buying handbags in China. But I’m hopeful.